Fear of Rejection
by Vanessa Carolyn

I love you. I love you.
Oh, God how I love you.
I wish I could tell you
and make you understand me.
I wish I knew
what you thought of me
so I wouldn't be so damn scared
that you wouldn't love me in return.
Every time I see you
I feel giddy, anxious
Although I may appear calm.
Yet, no matter how calm I seem
I'm always nervous of losing face in front of you.
A strange feeling bubbles
up inside my chest.
Making me want to throw my arms around you
and hold you forever.
Some day you'll know exactly what I mean.
Some day there will be no doubt, no secrets.
That some day seems an infinity away.
Some day I'll tell you everything.
I want to.
I will.
Well, I might...
but the rejection would kill me.

Written June 5, 2001, 1:28 pm
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